I have 5 children 3 boys and 2 girls. Their names are Corey, Daniel, Autumn, Dakoata, and Winter. In that order. They are 14, 8, 7, 5, and 4 years old. The younger 4 I have lost my parental rights to due to my inability to stabilize my mental health while fightening for them. My oldest has lived with my mother since he was 6 weeks old when I was first hospitalized for being suicidal and self harming myself. I was fifteen when I had him and there were many issues within the home and I could not cope with the things going on in life at the time.
I lost my children to the state of Virginia after I moved here from massachusettes. We had come to Lynchburg, VA after a social worker made us fear they were going to remove my children because my 5 year old who at the time was 18 months old had gotten out of our apartment and ran accross our street. We took off instead of facing things and working through them. I was scared. I had been in foster care as a child and did not want my children to endure what I had growing up. My husband and I left.
Once we had gotten here and found an apartment. We began to stabilize although the domestic issues continued between my ex-husband and I. A social worker came to our door about 2 months later and questioned us about who we were and where we were from. A few days later the children were removed.My mental health stability broke down within days of the children being taken and I was never able to get my life stable enough for the children to be returned.
I lost my parental rights to my 4 youngest children June 20, 2007. Just over 2 months after seperating from my ex-husband and beginning to get things together in my life. Both mentally, physicall, and emotionally. I fell apartafter that. I had my last vist with the 3 youngest children August 2007 and my son Daniel December 3, 2007. Right before his 7th Birthday.
My life was hcanged forever since then. I still am grieving although it is not as unstable as it was. I beleived there was no way of me surviving losing my children. They were all I had. I believed there is no life without them. I beleived there was no way for me to stabilize without them. Since then life has been rough and at times unstable and painful. But my feelings and sadness and shame has not killed me.